Author Archives: Shawn

About Shawn

I am an aspiring writer and what some may consider a dabbler of many things. In other words, a student of life.

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Working through the pain is all that I have so much left to do away with all that is wrong way of doing things it matters to one such as I don’t have all the answers can raise more questions can be difficult to deal with it doesn’t matter of the heart of the problem accepting the truth about who I am none of these things and yet I am


Madness

“Why have you brought me here?” she turned to him after he brought her to the hilltop this night.

“To show you this,” sweeping his arm and stepping aside to show a view of the town below.

The town was ablaze, the flames rising high into the night sky.

“W-what have you done?” the shock clearly heard in her voice, “Tell me! Why?”

“Vengeance,” looking at her out of the corner of her eye, “I did this all for you.”

Taking a step back, she turned to face him, “Have you gone completely mad?!”

“Now why do you say such hurtful things?” he smiled, facing her, turning his back upon the inferno, “It was THEY who hurt you, it was THEY who left you to your fate, not caring whether you lived or died, THEY deserved this. THEY deserved this fate that I bestowed upon them!”

“I never asked this of you! I never asked you to do anything!”

“I know…” the fires behind him only served to make his smile appear sinister, “but that does not mean I should stand by and do nothing, especially when it was within my power to do so.”


Distraction

And you caught my eye
and I lost track of all thoughts
now where were we at?


Words

Words dancing their way
through my mind all a jumble
writing down what’s left


Still, the Fragments Remain

There’s the sensation of whispered breaths
and someone’s flesh against me.
With my eyes closed,
I should be more concerned about who.
But I just let myself go
and get lost in the moment.
Falling, sinking, feeling
Her voice in my ear,
sending ripples, reverberating through my being.
There’s this profound effect
which used to take place
when she introduced her lips to mine,
too much time has passed to be sure of it.
Echoes of sweet whispers, haunting my brain.
Still, the fragments remain


Betrayal

“Just leave me alone! Go away!”

“What’s…” reaching out his hand to caress her face, “wrong?”

“Don’t touch me!!!” there was an edge of hysteria in her voice as she recoiled from him, “Don’t touch me, ever again. Everything you touch, meets its ruination. I do not wish to be pushed further down that road than you’ve already placed me, Rynan.”

“I don’t understand, my love,” taking a step back., “why have you changed so? What was the extent of their judgement?”

Tears started to slide down her face as she looked around, fear was in her voice, “Please, go. Ruination and chaos will surely show thanks to your presence here. Please, my lovely Rynan, leave… You cannot remain here any longer. If you do, the outcome will not be favorable, for either of us.”

“Why can’t you go with me? We can surely get out of here, just as easily as I’ve made it in here. Come, take my hand. We will go somewhere, away from all this.”

Taking out his outstretched hand, she stood up. “Where shall we go?”

“We shall go-“

“How about nowhere?” the voice called out from the small distance behind him “Well, thank you for being so obliging and saving me the trouble of finding you Rynan.”

Clutching her hand tightly, Rynan turned around, his heart sank by what he saw.

“Why the shocked expression, can’t give a proper greeting to an old friend, a battle-brother?”

Anger seethed out in the words through his clenched teeth, “You arranged this? You did this to her? Why the betrayal?”

“Because it must be done. This is how it must be played out, brother…”


briefest of reunions

Falling back into your embrace
Did you know, as you caught me in your tender arms
that I am still seeking you?
Pining…
Looking back and up at you
our eyes meet briefly before you dissipate
Your form breaking up
into a multitude of cherry blossoms
only to be carried away by the wind…
I fall again,
my knees crashing hard upon the ground
Alone, I assess the reality of the situation as I wake

to one

To one whose beauty
Is ideal and unsurpassed
I offer you this


unworthy

I didn’t do anything special
don’t look at me with awe
nor shower me with adulation
Please, don’t place your faith in me
don’t place your trust in me
nor look to me for guidance
…I will only let you down

unsaid

This cannot be helped
what I have to say
is building up inside
it is ready to burst
This will eat at me
if I do not let it out
it could consume me
it is dangerous
This is maddening
What can I do about this?
Keep it bottled up?
Shout it out and make it known?